saturday night....had a dream...dream that fadillah had an accident...and she was gone....i was so sad..regrat that i didt tell her that i love her...when i woke up...i was happy that it was just a dream...lying in bed for 1 hour...thinking whether to tell her my feeling for her anot...but was afraid that she would ignore me...and would not ask me question anymore like last time..and would affect her sch work...if i don confess to her...i might regrat like how i regrat in my dream....after around 45min....finally decided to tell her....i msg her...tell her that i love her....was thinking how i am gonna start...while typing...was worried that...she would avoid me...like most of the gals would do to a guy that confess to her....somehow...while typing...i tears drop down from my eye...after sending the msg...was hopping for her reply....anything..as long as she wont avoid me...and will still treat me as a frens....waited...and waited....but no reply...it's the first time that i confess to the girl i love....at night...just told myself everything would be fine....so i went to sleep....
05.03.07
it's monday...morning wake up...keep thinking how would fadillah treat me...after reading the msg i send her yesterday morning.....went to sch as normal...in maths lesson...i act as nothing had happen...so saw her just say hi...then pass her the national day picture she asked me to find...then after the last lesson....thats EOA...suddenly she call me...so i turn back....she told me that she only treat me as a classmate....although my heart was pain..but i accepted it....i told her i know and i understand...she told me sry to make me disappointed....at that moment....i was kinda happy...that she would say such things....well...at least she didt ignore me....when practicing dance...fadillah came...was happy...so just practice....and practice....i can feel that she stll treat me as a fren...so i was happy....
06.03.07
it's tuesday...happily went to sch...the words she said to me yesterday keep on refresh on my mind...so was feeling happy....i maths lesson...suddenly i felt something was wrong...i look at her...she turn away coldly...i can see that she wanted to ask me question...but something was holding her back...so she did not ask...i tot she would not ignore me...but...i was wrong...very wrong...suddenly...i felt weak..dam weak...i broke down...got no mood to do anything...haiz...but something tells me that...monday after she went home...someone told her something...that make her treat me coldly....but i just could not guess out that person...im dam sad...after sch...i leave my frens...i went to cycle...keep on thinking...what did i do..that make her suddenly avoid me...ytd we were fine....i bought a packet of sweet...wanted to share w ith her...but...suddenly all this happen...i really donno wad to do...during recess...i got no mood to eat..so just drink a packet of milo...then go do pull up...after that...do pumping...then hand stand...i just wanna make myself stronger...make myself to a higher lvl...to protect the one i love...but i know...no matter how strong one is...one cant protect someone 24hours....i cried....i felt useless...i know that she didt mean to avoid me...but i just could not guess out the reason why she's doing this to me....really...really got no mood....i feel weak...dam weak...just wanna ask her why is she doing this....to...me....
" leelee " 5:52 PM
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Name: Lee Wei Jian Jonathan
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DOB: 12 Jan 1991
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