crying while typing this.....when i was small...used to have a happy family...as long as i can remember...everyday in the morning...wake up....can smell the breakfast that my mother had made...evertime i was the last to wake up....when i wake up...would hear the voice of my family saying "Good Morning". the feeling make my day pass on happily....but...didt expect all this would soon come to an end...the day when i was in primary 1...around midnight....this is when my life start to change...as much as i can remember...i was waken by my mother...my 2 sister was awaken as well...suddenly my mother ask us to climb out from the window...i was small then...didt know wad was going on....so i just follow...never did i expect...the day before was the last time i saw my dad until around 1 yrs later...after my mother bring me and my sister out of the house...went to stay at frens house....after months later...mother rent a flat...4 of us stay together...for around1 yr...but each day...i fear that my mother would dig our ear....sound funny right? mayb she had metal prob or something...when she dig our ear...no matter its clean or wad...she would keep on digging...sometimes...even our ear bleed...when we cry...she would scold and beat us...life was like hell...when i was 8 yrs old...my mother gave birth to my little bro...then all of us stay in hospital to accompany my mother....after 1 week...police came...and took me and my sister away...we reach somewhere called Children Home ( Hostel ) i remembered...the very first day...i got slap by a gal for nth...i was weak then...all i can do is sit in a corner and cried....after half a yr...went to study for pri 3...in Hougang Primary....almost everyday...ppl in hostel bullied me...all i can do is listen to them...and do wad they told me to....but i met a twin bro...name Xiang De and Xiang Bao who was abt 1.9 - 2 meter tall...both of them was christian...at first...i didt really talk with them...as i was with the bad boys together...after 2 yr...i learn alot of bad things frm them...i follow them...bully the new boys that come inside...all sorts of stuffs....but sometimes...i quarral with them as well...they would ask all the boys not to talk with me...but everytime this happen....xiang de and xiang bao would be the only one to care for me...give me the warm i need...instead of teaching me all those bad things...they everytime would try to guide me on the right paths...but then...i ignore their advice...and make them disappointed times and again....but they treat me as their little bro...they didt give up on me...when im ok with those bad boys...i would hardly talk with the twins...but still...they treat me good...help me when im in need...in studys or anythings...they would try to guide and help me...soon i became close with the twins...everytime stick with them...boys and staff at there say bad things abt me...like act cute to them or something...but the twins would not bother about all this stuff...my study was totally suk...didt even know how to read english....until i met my tuition teacher inside the hostel...every week he came...he would ask me to read my textbook...but i could not read...and i don wanna try...so he would read story to me from my textbook or ghost story....days pass...somehow...i start to pick up my english without knowing how i learn....at pri 5....the tuition teacher stop teaching...was kinda sad...but i would turn to the twins to help me on my homework....through their guiding...i learn alot of Things In Life that others would not....i became a christian...but i was still bad...after we went in to hostel...my mother change to a better person..mayb its because in the past..she take things for granted...now she felt the feeling of losing her children...every week end we would go back to our mother house until sunday...everytime we went home...our mother would buy the things that we wan...even though she eat bread daily on weekdays when we were not around...but 1 day...it was a 4 days holidays...was suppose to go home for 4 days...we was very happy about it...but bad something happen...my mother house was burnt....my mother was admited to hospital due to sniffing in too much black smoke form the flame...but some how...my little bro was alright...heard that the fireman found my brother under our bed...i was thinking...is it that my mother save my little brother from the flame by hiding him under bed....until now...my mother still in hospital...when i became stronger... i bully people inside the hostel...steal things from shop...but everytime i was caught...i cant go home for the following weeks for punishment...but in the end...the one who cry was my mother...everytime im unable to go home...she would be very upset...but somehow i don dare to do anything evil infront of the twins...soon the end of Pri 5....im out of hostel....staying with my father until now....the first yr out of hostel...in Pri 6...i was kinda gangster in sch...i control my whole class...no one dares to talk back or wadever...i tot i was "Cool" and "Strong" being able to control ppl....eveyday after sch slack outside sch play ground...go around stealing things....cut people bike Lock...all sort of stuffs...always get first in class in exam when i was pri 5 - 6...but my grade drops when i enter a whole new world of secondary school....didt bother to study in sec 1 - 2...all i care is go to arcade to play everyday...even spending up to $20 a day in lan-shop...i was so addicted to playing computer games that whenever i got no money to play...i would go steal money from my father...but everytime i steal...i knew that my father know that it was me who stole his money...but he pretend not to know...he's giving me chance...after in sec 3....i started to think back all that i've done...i was ashame...i didt care those who was concern about me...when im weak inside hostel...i ask to be stronger...but in the end when i get stronger...i bully the weaks....i was so...evil...looking back all that i've done...and the love that my mother and father gave me...the teaching from the twins bro...i promise to seal my evil side...never to use my strenght for evil...i swear that i would only use the strenght that god give me to protect the one i love...and those around me...and to help those that needed my help....until now....whenever people ask me...who is my best fren in school....i would not be able to answer them...as i know...the twin brother are my only real friends that i met...not only i treat them as my friends...i respect them as my teacher....they share their joys with me...share the sad times of my life....they were the very best friends that i would never forget....after coming out of hostel...when i was 13 yrs old and 14 yrs old....no one remembered my birthday...not even my father....but...everytime...the twins would ask me out...to give me birthday present....they were the only one that remembered my birthday....but after in sec 3...i lost contact with them...i miss them so much....hoping to meet them somewhere...someday soon....now i met a girl...name fadillah...although she's a malay girl...i...still fall in love with her...mayb because...she's kind and sweet in nature...she told me that she's hot temper at home...haha...and she sit beside me in almost every lesson...hope that she will be safe when im not around her...and i would be able to help her when she need help...cuz of her...im able to study...told myself...i must get stronger to protect her...i...don wanna be helpless again...like i was in pri 3...the weak jonathan that cant even throw a basketball into the net....
" leelee " 9:07 PM
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Name: Lee Wei Jian Jonathan
Age 23
DOB: 12 Jan 1991
Contact: 90720803
